When I was younger I lived in a fantasy world. If I had lived in the world of today's children I would have been diagnosed with ADHD and put on some type of medication. That might have been okay. But, I tell my kids all the time that I don't think I would want to change my past if it meant a different outcome of my present. I can't see a way of changing my past to bring me to the present I currently have. And I'm a super big fan of the present I currently have.
Now I am on medication. Just a small dose of something that takes the edge off the high's and low's. But, sometimes I forget to refill the medication...and I think sometimes I do it on purpose, because the first thing a day without Cymbalta does is allows me to feel everything. Notice how I wrote everything in purple? Because, that is kind of what it feels like...purple. After a few hours of purple though, it heads into this muddy greenish-brown that is neither pretty nor inviting to live with. So I have to be careful. I only want to dance around the edges of crazy. I don't want to dive all the way in.
This is me on my honeymoon...back when I was sexy on the outside too:-)
Jill, your STILL a SEXY MAMA!!!
ReplyDeleteI was on Xantax a few years ago because I was having some major panic attacks. I still don't know what the exact cause was but something tells me it came in the form of 4 female human beings I was taking care of. Sometimes I wish I was still on it. I only took if for a couple of weeks, but I was SO much more laid back.
I really wish I was more carefree like you are! That is such a great trait to have! ROCK ON SEXY LADY!!
laid back is awesome..take the meds:-)
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